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I’m not in a good place right now

the only thing that keeps me from losing my shit every day is my busy schedule. 2 of my best friends are halfway across the world and my other best friend has been ignoring me for the past 2 weeks, yet won’t admit to it for whatever reason even though I’ve known him for 8 years so it’s very clear that something’s up. we’ve gotten especially close in the past year so the fact that he’s suddenly ignoring me is really upsetting me, but apparently that’s not enough for him to grow up and actually tell me what’s wrong. there are other things that I don’t want to write about on here but I just feel like all this shit is starting to pile up and I don’t know how much longer I can deal with it. school keeps me busy and stresses me out at the same time. thankfully I haven’t had too much to do lately but with finals right around the corner my stress level is just gonna keep growing.

I so often feel like I only have a few good friends here that I can hang out with when I’m bored, and when they’re busy I just sit alone in my room and do nothing. there are only a couple people here I can turn to when I need help with something or when I just want to hang out but they also have boyfriends or other friends they can do that with. I guess thats what Alex and James are to me but Alex is in Spain and James hasn’t been answering me too much lately. I just feel like I’m constantly sitting at home alone but I don’t have anyone else I can really talk to.

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